Suddenly i feel so depressed and suffocating. I feel like i am not in control of my life and the result of that is my weight gain. Though M.M (partner) says i look sexy af, deep down i find it hard to believe it. All my hard work through out the year went down the drain.
How do i put my emotions and eating habits in check?
I didn’t even know how much i weigh, how i felt and clothes getting tighter narrated the story on my behalf. When i got to the lowest weigh i can remember weighing 79kg, i think i got a bit excited. I slowly went back to my old ways. I saw same patterns and groves that got me to a wooping 105kg. I have noticed over the years that my relationship with food is an unhealthy one. I struggle to keep up on days when i feel like my world is sinking. I tend to indulge my pains away, and gain in the process. Since trying to loose the extra weight and the adoption of a healthy lifestyle, i have watched my body changing and weight fluctuating depending on how well things are. When im happy i loose weight effortlessly and its all because i eat what i should eat. It becomes a challenge when things start to fall apart. I would take in everything as a distraction to whatever blue feeling im going through. And i would gain some of the weight back.
Today marks a new chapter. My journey to weightloss and fitness continues and i will not fail. A journey to self discovery and health. I want to be more mindful and nurture my health. A change of lifestyle and my eating habits is my first priority.
I am going Vegan for as long as i can. Who gets tired of meat? And the answer to that is me. I decided to quit meat and any animal products or by-products for sometime, starting today. My reason for choosing a plant based vegan diet besides weightloss and its health benefits its because i don’t enjoy meat anymore. I stopped eating eggs simply because they are expensive at the moment. A tray of 30 went up to R80, they are not gold after all. I barely drink cow milk or eat cheese unless im having a pizza or a sandwich (once or twice a month. Going vegan wont be as traumatising as when i did the keto diet for the first time. I want to be excited over a piece of bacon or atleast drool over ribs and sticky wings. I dont even know if I’ll ever go back to eating meat again, time will tell.
Today Saturday 30 December 2017 marks the begining if week1 of my weightloss journey. Every week i will blog and share my progress amd struggles of my journey. I have lost weight before amd i know what to expect. I will never be easy or overnight.
I have the support i need to make it all possible .
Goal weight: 70kg
Current weight: 92.1kg
Total weight lost : 0kg
Weight to lose: 22.1kg
Anyone whi want to loose or gain weight and looking for support, feel free to contact me. Lets help each other.